I'm almost there. Part of me wants to return to playing now, but I have a strong feeling that if I did, I'd just burn out again in a month, so I'm giving it a little more time until my head is really in the game.

Plus, my SO is laid up with a pretty bad infection, so I'm in charge of everything else happening around the house until the antibiotics do their friggin job.

Aaaaaaaand we found out one of our cats is diabetic, but it looks like it's under control for now, so that's just adding to the FUN. We'll figure it out though.

Thanks for being so patient folks. I'm trying my best to get my head on straight with all the stress and worry.

Ugh, sorry. Nevermind. I am NOT okay. I started trying to type up something for the campaign today and I actually ended up having a damn anxiety attack. I know, it's ridiculous. Why would writing a post give me an anxiety attack? It's completely irrational, but it happened, and it's a pretty damn big clue that I have damage that needs to be addressed. The idea of making a mistake that makes the campaign boring or frustrating or illogical just makes me want to curl up in a ball and hide to a degree that I know is a very damn big red flag.

I really don't want to give up on the campaign but at this point I don't know when I'll be able to recover from this. Yes, of course stress plays a huge role, but for things to have gotten this out of hand, something bigger is definitely going on and I need to sort it out.

I'm really sorry for leaving things hanging for so long. I keep thinking that I'm going to do better, and then I don't. Again, I'd love it if you guys want to stick around, but at this point I can't even give a time frame for when I'll stop being such a damn basket case, so I can't blame you for moving on either.

 Look, Kina, none of us are going to die if the campaign ends or go on extended hiatus. You do you and when you're ready send out a message and see who's still hanging around.

We're in no haste. Please don't feel obligated with us. Go at your own pace. We'll- at least I know I will- be here when you're ready to post again.

Hey folks. Stresses have been piling up thanks to some serious issues, and they're not stopping. I don't know when/if they're going to let up so I think it's best if I just thank all of you for trying out my experiment and simply end things here. It's going to be months before things are resolved, and even then, it's going to take me some time to recover enough to be capable of playing again.

Much thanks, best wishes in the future.

I am so sorry to hear you're still struggling and I hope things get better for you.  I had so much fun playing Aelar!. If things do get better and you want to start something new or even revive the March, send me a PM.  Heck, if you just want to vent, I'm here.  Take care and be well.

I'll probably want to start something completely new, if I do try being a DM again. Right now though, that seems like something that's very far off.

Short version: I'm being referred to a neurosurgeon. My stenosis has progressed to the point where I'm starting to lose control of my legs and the government is trying to cut our health insurance.

That sucks. Good luck to you.

Kina you were an awesome DM and the rest of you guys were great playing with. If any of you ever want to set up a game and are looking for players or a DM i'd definitely be down. All the best for your health there Kina- I can't imagine what you're going through but hang in there and I hope you and yours are well.  Till the kitchen sinks- RD

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Kina you were an awesome DM and the rest of you guys were great playing with. If any of you ever want to set up a game and are looking for players or a DM i'd definitely be down. All the best for your health there Kina- I can't imagine what you're going through but hang in there and I hope you and yours are well.  Till the kitchen sinks- RD

 Here here!

I'm trying to work on something new, but it's real slow going. Inspiration is hard to come by, but if I don't continue trying to be creative, I'm afraid I'm just going to totally stall out. When I say it's slow going, I mean maybe I'll have something to show for it by Christmas, if any of you are interested in seeing it. I'll be posting illustrations and stuff I'm preparing for a more fleshed out and less 'by the seat of my pants' experimental creation.

Absolutely!

I’m down for it as well! As an aside I was real excited to hear WoTC was set to release a Planescape book in 2023. Most of the in house games I play are set in Sigil, and our material is really heavily basic on that setting and lore from the late 90’s. 

but I dunno- I’m hearing a lot if complaints from the Spelljammer fans (never One myself- more of a Gamma World fan) that the new book kinda stinks. Any of you guys read it/play it? 

I haven't read anything in a long while, so I can't offer up anything

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but I dunno- I’m hearing a lot if complaints from the Spelljammer fans (never One myself- more of a Gamma World fan) that the new book kinda stinks. Any of you guys read it/play it? 

 I haven't heard anything from players.  I did read a brief article about it had some racist stuff in it, a race and pictures of that race, that were portrayed in a racist manner.  Right now I'm in a PBP campaign (all mine are PBP :( ) set in the Radiant Citadel.  I read a bunch in that book.  It seems cool.  Exandria is also neat.