You have absorbed a Fragment of Suffering-- a tangible representation of an emotion felt by the Apotheon.

Benefit. You are immune to the charmed condition.

Drawback. You can’t take the Help action.

You can use an action to transfer this fragment to another creature by touching the fragment’s intended recipient. When a fragment leaves a creature, that creature loses the benefit and drawback conferred by the fragment.

Yes. You let go of hope because you know nothing will ever change.