* there was something I wished to tell everyone. *
the BH who led everyone all this time, isn't 100% the real me. That BH was created in order for things to be able to work in the first place. I have been trying to be myself as much as possible on the thread and with everyone, but if i were to truly be myself here...everything would fall apart. nothing would work. That BH is someone I wish i could be in real life. People on the thread see me as a leader, some even see a mother figure through Malwyn, someone they could ask help from. All my words and actions have all been done with sincerity. Although some of it wasn't true to myself, I truly do care for everyone and I truly did try to be someone that met everyone's expectations. I hope that any moments in the past that I have done that have helped someone or brought others together, remain in the memories of everyone including myself. I am truly sorry that I couldn't be the BH everyone has asked to be their leader for so long. I truly am sorry that my strength has run out. I tried. I just hope you know that, I tried. I tried so hard to get this far for you guys. I can't anymore. I hope that even tho I am retiring from my leadership position, I will be able to show my true self to everyone and be able to be like everyone else one day. So free to be themselves, in a place I tried to make safe for them to be themselves. I have a wish, that one day I will find a place like this for me. That I can be myself without carrying the responsibility of the sweet burden known as leadership. I wish to be everyone's friends on equal footing. That they wouldn't see me as some authoritative figure. But as someone who is just being themselves as best they can. I am no leader. That was a BH I created. No matter what people say, I am not a true leader. It has been hard, almost impossible for me to be the leader. I hope everyone will know that I care about them and that everything I have done as their leader is true and I did with sincerity, that part of me was true. If I am able, I will help. That part is true. there is so much more so much more I wish I could say to explain everything that I have been feeling and wanting to say all this time. There are some things I will not say despite wanting to. I wish to be able to continue to be friends with you guys. If you wish to speak with me, I will still be on ddb and my doors are open. I hope that everyone can learn to accept me as I am in the future. I might not be up to everyone's expectations anymore but I hope at least in some part I will be. I do not wish to disappoint anyone for who I am. Perhaps not everyone will be able to see the subtle or even drastic changes to myself that I know of, but these are going to be the changes that will set me free of worrying that I will fail to be the BH everyone knows.
Details such as who will be the new leader(s) I will announce once I know for certain of those changes.
*That's... sort of the point of roleplay/having a persona online. To be someone you aren't as a form of escapism from irl. Also, it's a way to meet people with the same interests and build a friendship on that. It shouldn't matter that much who you are irl, you'd still be friends with the people you've met, regardless of how much of the roleplay wasn't 100% accurate to irl you. At least, that is my pov on roleplay/D&D in general.*
*Thank you as well <3*
*you do have a point*
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Do’ Taba the Honest Merchant
Malwyn the Barkeeper of The Tales of Adventurers’ Tavern
* there was something I wished to tell everyone. *
the BH who led everyone all this time, isn't 100% the real me. That BH was created in order for things to be able to work in the first place. I have been trying to be myself as much as possible on the thread and with everyone, but if i were to truly be myself here...everything would fall apart. nothing would work. That BH is someone I wish i could be in real life. People on the thread see me as a leader, some even see a mother figure through Malwyn, someone they could ask help from. All my words and actions have all been done with sincerity. Although some of it wasn't true to myself, I truly do care for everyone and I truly did try to be someone that met everyone's expectations. I hope that any moments in the past that I have done that have helped someone or brought others together, remain in the memories of everyone including myself. I am truly sorry that I couldn't be the BH everyone has asked to be their leader for so long. I truly am sorry that my strength has run out. I tried. I just hope you know that, I tried. I tried so hard to get this far for you guys. I can't anymore. I hope that even tho I am retiring from my leadership position, I will be able to show my true self to everyone and be able to be like everyone else one day. So free to be themselves, in a place I tried to make safe for them to be themselves. I have a wish, that one day I will find a place like this for me. That I can be myself without carrying the responsibility of the sweet burden known as leadership. I wish to be everyone's friends on equal footing. That they wouldn't see me as some authoritative figure. But as someone who is just being themselves as best they can. I am no leader. That was a BH I created. No matter what people say, I am not a true leader. It has been hard, almost impossible for me to be the leader. I hope everyone will know that I care about them and that everything I have done as their leader is true and I did with sincerity, that part of me was true. If I am able, I will help. That part is true. there is so much more so much more I wish I could say to explain everything that I have been feeling and wanting to say all this time. There are some things I will not say despite wanting to. I wish to be able to continue to be friends with you guys. If you wish to speak with me, I will still be on ddb and my doors are open. I hope that everyone can learn to accept me as I am in the future. I might not be up to everyone's expectations anymore but I hope at least in some part I will be. I do not wish to disappoint anyone for who I am. Perhaps not everyone will be able to see the subtle or even drastic changes to myself that I know of, but these are going to be the changes that will set me free of worrying that I will fail to be the BH everyone knows.
Details such as who will be the new leader(s) I will announce once I know for certain of those changes.
*Thank you as well <3*
*you do have a point*
Do’ Taba the Honest Merchant
Malwyn the Barkeeper of The Tales of Adventurers’ Tavern
*I've got to go for the weekend, see you all Monday!*
Want a place to roleplay in your spare time? Here: Lord's Rest Inn
Please don't hide your imperfections, if one part is beautiful, it all is.
I don't like rp-heavy games, I LOVE them.
*Bye, BH! We'll miss you.*
I have a weird sense of humor.
I also make maps.(That's a link)
She keeps looking into his eyes
"Well...... um..... Got anything else to talk about." He says awkwardly
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
"No" She keeps looking into his eyes
"You're uh..... staring"
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
*I’m pretty sure she wants him to kiss her. Slowly. Softly. Romantically. Of course that may not be what he wants.*
*Idk if that'll work with damien then..... he's not exactly the..... whats the words?*
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
"I am?" She keeps looking into his eyes
*Dw. I get what you mean.
I gtg for now. Hope you guys can work out an RP you’ll both enjoy. Ttyl.*
"Yeah, you are. Getting a bit creepy ya know?" He says, getting rather nervous
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
*Not to mention he wears a mask constantly, gotta stay safe from the rona*
*BYE!!!!! C u later*
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
She shakes her head "Oh sorry"
"Its ok, i know i look pretty weird"
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
"No the reason why I kept staring at you is because your eyes are dreamy"
"Oh, thank you" He replys, "You're eyes are very nice too"
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
She blushes "Thanks"
He nods, smiling under his half mask, "You're welcome"
I play a miriad of characters at the lord's rest inn
Two things are infinite: The universe, and human stupidity; and I'm not so sure about the universe.
Scifi horror is quite the trip :) Comics and a story
#FreeDND
She looks at his notebook "What are you writing"