What you said not only hurt me but it sent me back to a time where I was so powerless against my own mother. You said the same things she did and that stabbed at my very core so badly I had to go to the crisis center. I was on a calm with Salem during the time and they witnessed me breaking down before their very eyes. I couldn't breathe, my chest hurt, and I most literally didn't know what to think other than how could you say that to those who wanted to help you.
No, I don't care for your excuses. No, I don't care what you we're feeling during that moment because those are things you should never ever say to your friends unless you are burning all bridges you crossed.
I am so mad at you for what you said but I am trying to be civil.
I get that you are hurting. I get that you feel alone. I get all that of that because that is the same shit I have gone through for years. Do you remember what you said to me a few months ago when we talked of suicide?
You said to talk to somebody. Talk to a therapist. Talk to a counselor. Call 911. Do something so you can continue living.
I am tired. You are tired. We are all tired. But that doesn't mean we say such awful shit to each other.
I care for you more than I care for myself. I wouldn't ******* care if I died tomorrow if it meant you continued being happy. In every ******* timeline I would be okay if I died if it meant you and everyone else I know we're happy.
On top of that, seeing that EJODM agreed with you ****s me up because no one's should agree to the shit you wrote now or ever. No one is sick, no one is disgusting. We are different in our own ways that the fact you look so low upon yourself and others makes me so upset that I can't verbalize it.
I forgive you still because I know what its like to be in the dark and to give up hope on every damn little piece of life.
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"Forgive the mess, I am trying to regain my sanity again."
Don't forgive me. Get it out of your system, because I am nowhere near better. But don't forgive me yet. Don't cling to me. I don't deserve your mercy or kindness.
I meant what I said at the time, even if I didn't mean it before or after I said it. The fact that I believed that even for a moment is a testament to how untrusting I am.
I have issues, and I need to resolve them. I want to be a good person. I don't want to abuse my friends. I want to be able to be there for you.
I don't want to be who I was last night.
This isn't some pity party I'm holding for myself. This is for my safety and others.
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Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.
May each word that I speak be backed by each of my teeth.
I wasn't online for what happened, and i wasn't really sure why what happened happened but i hope ya don't mind me saying stuff
Baalze, you are an amazing person and friend. You may see yourself as this untrusting untrustworthy friend, but you aren't. I've trusted you with plenty of things, and you've helped me with a lot. You're better than you say you are, and i won't think otherwise no matter what
Wendi, you're one of the nicest people i know, and you deserve to feel safe in every place you choose to be in. I wish i could just give you a hug rn,
i know this whole situation is rough, and i wish i could say something better, but you both are such amazing and kind people
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
You say that, but something might force you, and then you’re gone. Nothing even matters anymore, my life means nothing to me anyway. Thank you though Alaric.
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
You say that, but something might force you, and then you’re gone. Nothing even matters anymore, my life means nothing to me anyway. Thank you though Alaric.
Look, i've been where that is, a while ago. Things get rough and life feels meaningless. But the magic of it? we're alive, and we can give life whatever meaning we desire. The world is yours my friend, you just have to take it. You'll never be alone as long as you have that faith in yourself
My titles are the great Silver Dragon Lord of the Sky, Second in Command of the Dragon Cult, High Warlock of Cynophobia, High Cultist of Jeff, The Lightning Mage. I’m a ✨Chronically online teenage boy✨, and one of the most active posters on the forums (MORE THAN SALEM AND GONZALO). Always open to talk if you’d like to shoot me a PM! Please don’t hesitate to tell me I’m being a jerk or overbearing, I love helpful feedback! Love y’all!
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
You say that, but something might force you, and then you’re gone. Nothing even matters anymore, my life means nothing to me anyway. Thank you though Alaric.
Look, i've been where that is, a while ago. Things get rough and life feels meaningless. But the magic of it? we're alive, and we can give life whatever meaning we desire. The world is yours my friend, you just have to take it. You'll never be alone as long as you have that faith in yourself
Why have faith in myself, I don’t matter, I’ll never matter. If I’ve affected any lives it’s been all of yours, and only by the smallest margin. All of you will eventually forget about me, the world will never know I ever existed. My life is meaningless, but I’ll try things your way. I’ll try to live life.
A lot, we're just kinda figuring ourselves and emotions out i think
I get that.
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My titles are the great Silver Dragon Lord of the Sky, Second in Command of the Dragon Cult, High Warlock of Cynophobia, High Cultist of Jeff, The Lightning Mage. I’m a ✨Chronically online teenage boy✨, and one of the most active posters on the forums (MORE THAN SALEM AND GONZALO). Always open to talk if you’d like to shoot me a PM! Please don’t hesitate to tell me I’m being a jerk or overbearing, I love helpful feedback! Love y’all!
I wasn't there when it happened, nor am I on Lord's Rest at all, so I don't know what I am qualified to say here. We will 100% miss you, but I personally think that if you need to take a break for the sake of your mental health, you should do what you have to do since that's one of the most important things you need to manage in your life. You can return when you're ready, it's all good, then we can move on from this. It'll be sad without you here, but it's not permanently goodbye.
Also, Demon, Arch isn't gone because they left the platform. They left because their account glitched along with a ton of other people, the staff has neglected to fix it, but they'll be able to return on December 18th. We know that for a fact.
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Hello! I am a perfectly sane gibberer. Hi! :D
Locations are dead, the Temple of Potassium has fallen but its ideals live on
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
You say that, but something might force you, and then you’re gone. Nothing even matters anymore, my life means nothing to me anyway. Thank you though Alaric.
Look, i've been where that is, a while ago. Things get rough and life feels meaningless. But the magic of it? we're alive, and we can give life whatever meaning we desire. The world is yours my friend, you just have to take it. You'll never be alone as long as you have that faith in yourself
Why have faith in myself, I don’t matter, I’ll never matter. If I’ve affected any lives it’s been all of yours, and only by the smallest margin. All of you will eventually forget about me, the world will never know I ever existed. My life is meaningless, but I’ll try things your way. I’ll try to live life.
In the grand scale of the world nothing matters. But does that mean we stop caring?
No. we move forward, we persevere. You matter to me, you matter to us, you matter to the world even if it's small
I wasn't there when it happened, nor am I on Lord's Rest at all, so I don't know what I am qualified to say here. We will 100% miss you, but I personally think that if you need to take a break for the sake of your mental health, you should do what you have to do since that's one of the most important things you need to manage in your life. You can return when you're ready, it's all good, then we can move on from this. It'll be sad without you here, but it's not permanently goodbye.
Also, Demon, Arch isn't gone because they left the platform. They left because their account glitched along with a ton of other people, the staff has neglected to fix it, but they'll be able to return on December 18th. We know that for a fact.
I am also not on LRI, but we will miss you if you go. I don’t know you too well, but you seem like a chill guy, and we all mess up. If you need to take a break for your mental health, do that. You matter. Your mental health matters.
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Hey y’all, you can call me Sel or Julian or whatever, I don’t really care. Pronouns are they/he. Some things about be, I like reading, writing, dnd, theater, art. I have an art doc and my yt channel linked below. Pms are always open if you need to talk. Love y’all <3
I said some things last night that were not only wrong but abusive toward you guys, my only friends.
I don't care about any reasons for what I did, and I don't think you do either. What matters is that I did them, and they hurt people.
Until I'm sure this won't happen again, I will be online much less if at all.
I'm sorry, for how little that means.
Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.
May each word that I speak be backed by each of my teeth.
Baalz.
What you said not only hurt me but it sent me back to a time where I was so powerless against my own mother. You said the same things she did and that stabbed at my very core so badly I had to go to the crisis center. I was on a calm with Salem during the time and they witnessed me breaking down before their very eyes. I couldn't breathe, my chest hurt, and I most literally didn't know what to think other than how could you say that to those who wanted to help you.
No, I don't care for your excuses. No, I don't care what you we're feeling during that moment because those are things you should never ever say to your friends unless you are burning all bridges you crossed.
I am so mad at you for what you said but I am trying to be civil.
I get that you are hurting. I get that you feel alone. I get all that of that because that is the same shit I have gone through for years. Do you remember what you said to me a few months ago when we talked of suicide?
You said to talk to somebody. Talk to a therapist. Talk to a counselor. Call 911. Do something so you can continue living.
I am tired. You are tired. We are all tired. But that doesn't mean we say such awful shit to each other.
I care for you more than I care for myself. I wouldn't ******* care if I died tomorrow if it meant you continued being happy. In every ******* timeline I would be okay if I died if it meant you and everyone else I know we're happy.
On top of that, seeing that EJODM agreed with you ****s me up because no one's should agree to the shit you wrote now or ever. No one is sick, no one is disgusting. We are different in our own ways that the fact you look so low upon yourself and others makes me so upset that I can't verbalize it.
I forgive you still because I know what its like to be in the dark and to give up hope on every damn little piece of life.
"Forgive the mess, I am trying to regain my sanity again."
[Taken by my gourmand boyfriend]
Lawrence.
Don't forgive me. Get it out of your system, because I am nowhere near better. But don't forgive me yet. Don't cling to me. I don't deserve your mercy or kindness.
I meant what I said at the time, even if I didn't mean it before or after I said it. The fact that I believed that even for a moment is a testament to how untrusting I am.
I have issues, and I need to resolve them. I want to be a good person. I don't want to abuse my friends. I want to be able to be there for you.
I don't want to be who I was last night.
This isn't some pity party I'm holding for myself. This is for my safety and others.
Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.
May each word that I speak be backed by each of my teeth.
I don't care. You are my friend and, I'm every aspect, I love you. I may not agree with what you said but I still love you.
"Forgive the mess, I am trying to regain my sanity again."
[Taken by my gourmand boyfriend]
I love you too.
Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.
May each word that I speak be backed by each of my teeth.
I wasn't online for what happened, and i wasn't really sure why what happened happened but i hope ya don't mind me saying stuff
Baalze, you are an amazing person and friend. You may see yourself as this untrusting untrustworthy friend, but you aren't. I've trusted you with plenty of things, and you've helped me with a lot. You're better than you say you are, and i won't think otherwise no matter what
Wendi, you're one of the nicest people i know, and you deserve to feel safe in every place you choose to be in. I wish i could just give you a hug rn,
i know this whole situation is rough, and i wish i could say something better, but you both are such amazing and kind people
I love both of you and i really hope you are staying safe
Baalze, you aren’t leaving. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, you said some things, but we all say things when we are in emotional states. You’re only human, you were deeply stressed out and you took it out on us, and I don’t blame you for a second, you apologized for it not once or twice, but many times. I hope I’m not too late for you to read this, Baalze you’re an incredible friend and someone I care deeply about, even though I don’t truly know who you are. Please reconsider, and even if you leave Baalze, no matter what you think, you are forever welcome here. You’re the reason I stayed, let me be part of the reason you stay. I understand you said some terrible things that hurt people, but the best way to fix those things is to stay, or at least that’s what I think. Not that anything I say will change much. No ends up listening to me anyway, everything I say will probably end up changing absolutely nothing. Wendi’s going to leave, Baalze is going to leave, next with will Alaric, Fry, Moon. Arch has been gone, and Theren has left too. Piece by piece I’ll lose all my friends and I’ll be all alone again, why am I even alive?
Bud, i ain't leaving unless something forces me to, don't worry
I won't leave. I'm just going to be working on my mental health.
Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.
May each word that I speak be backed by each of my teeth.
You say that, but something might force you, and then you’re gone. Nothing even matters anymore, my life means nothing to me anyway. Thank you though Alaric.
Good, it really would have hurt if you left.
Look, i've been where that is, a while ago. Things get rough and life feels meaningless.
But the magic of it? we're alive, and we can give life whatever meaning we desire. The world is yours my friend, you just have to take it. You'll never be alone as long as you have that faith in yourself
What happened?
My titles are the great Silver Dragon Lord of the Sky, Second in Command of the Dragon Cult, High Warlock of Cynophobia, High Cultist of Jeff, The Lightning Mage. I’m a ✨Chronically online teenage boy✨, and one of the most active posters on the forums (MORE THAN SALEM AND GONZALO). Always open to talk if you’d like to shoot me a PM! Please don’t hesitate to tell me I’m being a jerk or overbearing, I love helpful feedback! Love y’all!
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A lot, we're just kinda figuring ourselves and emotions out i think
Why have faith in myself, I don’t matter, I’ll never matter. If I’ve affected any lives it’s been all of yours, and only by the smallest margin. All of you will eventually forget about me, the world will never know I ever existed. My life is meaningless, but I’ll try things your way. I’ll try to live life.
I get that.
My titles are the great Silver Dragon Lord of the Sky, Second in Command of the Dragon Cult, High Warlock of Cynophobia, High Cultist of Jeff, The Lightning Mage. I’m a ✨Chronically online teenage boy✨, and one of the most active posters on the forums (MORE THAN SALEM AND GONZALO). Always open to talk if you’d like to shoot me a PM! Please don’t hesitate to tell me I’m being a jerk or overbearing, I love helpful feedback! Love y’all!
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I wasn't there when it happened, nor am I on Lord's Rest at all, so I don't know what I am qualified to say here. We will 100% miss you, but I personally think that if you need to take a break for the sake of your mental health, you should do what you have to do since that's one of the most important things you need to manage in your life. You can return when you're ready, it's all good, then we can move on from this. It'll be sad without you here, but it's not permanently goodbye.
Also, Demon, Arch isn't gone because they left the platform. They left because their account glitched along with a ton of other people, the staff has neglected to fix it, but they'll be able to return on December 18th. We know that for a fact.
Hello! I am a perfectly sane gibberer. Hi! :D
Locations are dead, the Temple of Potassium has fallen but its ideals live on
A mysterious link of chain... (Extended signature). PRAISE JEFF THE EVIL ROOMBA! REALLY cool video.
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Titles: The Echoing Story Spewer from Drummer, the Endless Maws from Isis, the Mad Murderer from PJ
In the grand scale of the world nothing matters. But does that mean we stop caring?
No. we move forward, we persevere. You matter to me, you matter to us, you matter to the world even if it's small
I am also not on LRI, but we will miss you if you go. I don’t know you too well, but you seem like a chill guy, and we all mess up. If you need to take a break for your mental health, do that. You matter. Your mental health matters.
Hey y’all, you can call me Sel or Julian or whatever, I don’t really care. Pronouns are they/he. Some things about be, I like reading, writing, dnd, theater, art. I have an art doc and my yt channel linked below. Pms are always open if you need to talk. Love y’all <3
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