It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
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Hello! Call me Tana or 타나 My pronouns are Any/All/BOC Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
Golden, don't think that! You don't have to offer advice, but you're still smart!
...being intelligent is knowing how to apply knowledge and come up with solutions to problems. Advice is a facet of that.
...and you know that
I didn't know that
You're smart
Why is it that any time I try to tell people I'm not smart they gang up to say I am? It's not fair.
Flattering, I suppose, but not fair.
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Shows she's lost patience with it lol
But yeah, Golden, you're smart in all of our books. (Last time I'll say it)
...
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It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
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I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult) I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3 Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Oh, wow
BUT. GET. OVER. IT. NOW
Please? it will make me feel better?
*Purrs*
Sure...
*My Orange Tabby likes to purr just before assaulting people. I am concerned.*
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
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Hello! Call me Tana or 타나 My pronouns are Any/All/BOC Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
Golden, don't think that! You don't have to offer advice, but you're still smart!
...being intelligent is knowing how to apply knowledge and come up with solutions to problems. Advice is a facet of that.
...and you know that
I didn't know that
You're smart
Why is it that any time I try to tell people I'm not smart they gang up to say I am? It's not fair.
Flattering, I suppose, but not fair.
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Shows she's lost patience with it lol
But yeah, Golden, you're smart in all of our books. (Last time I'll say it)
...
Thats sort of insulting
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I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult) I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3 Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나 My pronouns are Any/All/BOC Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Shows she's lost patience with it lol
But yeah, Golden, you're smart in all of our books. (Last time I'll say it)
She definitely lost her patience.
Although that might not be why she lost patience with me.
Also: putting me in a book would degrade it's quality. But all right.
........
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Hello! Call me Tana or 타나 My pronouns are Any/All/BOC Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
It's okay to accept that you're not feeling great. Over the last few years, I've personally realized that when I try to "tough it out" and "man up", things just go downhill from there. So -- it's okay to take a day off, sleep in, work on feeling better. And look -- everyone has these days. You're not alone.
But -- knowing what happiness is and coming back to where you started is hard. I'm not entirely sure what to say here -- hope you feel better, hope you figure this out -- and know that things'll get better. You are yourself -- you know what you need.
Also (for everyone) -- I know (nearly) none of you IRL, yet you all are great people. Keep being that way :)
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Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
No! Completely understood (again, everyone's like this at times.)
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Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Oh, wow
BUT. GET. OVER. IT. NOW
Please? it will make me feel better?
*Purrs*
Sure...
*My Orange Tabby likes to purr just before assaulting people. I am concerned.*
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
um...
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Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
Hustle like I bag groceries Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely 'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie |------extended sig------|
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Oh, wow
BUT. GET. OVER. IT. NOW
Please? it will make me feel better?
*Purrs*
Sure...
*My Orange Tabby likes to purr just before assaulting people. I am concerned.*
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
um...
Cats can do that
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Hello! Call me Tana or 타나 My pronouns are Any/All/BOC Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
...
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs
Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult)
I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3
Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose
Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
YO I'M COOKING ON INVESTOPEDIA LET'S GO
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
sorry sorry sorry
excited about hitting 1000 posts as well
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
Thats sort of insulting
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
No its all good im just being depressing
I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs
Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult)
I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3
Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose
Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
Which, is sometimes the best medicine
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
........
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.
WAIT OLD UI RESTORED!
Praise Jeff!!!!!
Ni!
Creator of the Realm of Dragons Tavern
My Extended Sig
It's okay to accept that you're not feeling great. Over the last few years, I've personally realized that when I try to "tough it out" and "man up", things just go downhill from there. So -- it's okay to take a day off, sleep in, work on feeling better. And look -- everyone has these days. You're not alone.
But -- knowing what happiness is and coming back to where you started is hard. I'm not entirely sure what to say here -- hope you feel better, hope you figure this out -- and know that things'll get better. You are yourself -- you know what you need.
Also (for everyone) -- I know (nearly) none of you IRL, yet you all are great people. Keep being that way :)
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
No! Completely understood (again, everyone's like this at times.)
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
um...
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
Yup. Hi, Isaac!
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
(also 7 (after this, 6) posts from 1000 yay! :)
EDIT -- after I posted this I just realized I was about...6'7 posts from 1000, maybe?
Hustle like I bag groceries
Bad hoes be on me then get mad lonely
'Cause I ain't getting too attached, I'm tryna grab trophies
And anything that's in the way just gettin' gassed, brodie
|------extended sig------|
Cats can do that
Hello! Call me Tana or 타나
My pronouns are Any/All/BOC
Disclaimer: Tana__ is not to be held responsible for any of the following events happening as a result of talking to Tana__, touching Tana__, or even just seeing Tana__: The rise of Tiamat, resurrection of Vecna, pissed-of genies, a complete and utter power change in the blood war, or a fate worse than a fate worse than total annihilation. Exist with Tana__ at your own risk.