It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
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I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult) I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3 Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult) I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3 Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
It's just... I used to be so used to crushing depression and dysphoria, but now I've been having more and more good days, so when the sad comes back in, it's a lot.
How did i deal with this? How did I live with the weight of constantly having to play the part of the good little daughter? I guess that now I know what it feels like to be truly happy and accepted, it hurts a lot more.
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
It's okay to accept that you're not feeling great. Over the last few years, I've personally realized that when I try to "tough it out" and "man up", things just go downhill from there. So -- it's okay to take a day off, sleep in, work on feeling better. And look -- everyone has these days. You're not alone.
But -- knowing what happiness is and coming back to where you started is hard. I'm not entirely sure what to say here -- hope you feel better, hope you figure this out -- and know that things'll get better. You are yourself -- you know what you need.
Also (for everyone) -- I know (nearly) none of you IRL, yet you all are great people. Keep being that way :)
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Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
No! Completely understood (again, everyone's like this at times.)
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Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
BECAUSE YOU ARE SMART, AND YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT GET. OVER. IT
Please?
...Now you sound like my Mom. Except for the 'please'.
Oh, wow
BUT. GET. OVER. IT. NOW
Please? it will make me feel better?
*Purrs*
Sure...
*My Orange Tabby likes to purr just before assaulting people. I am concerned.*
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
um...
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Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest They fill the air And burn and bury you just like the rest Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin. |------extended sig------|
correct, its so much worse the second time
SO MUCH WORSE
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
...
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
It honestly turns my stomach now. If I wasn't an actor by vocation, I'd be up the creek with out a paddle by now
I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs
Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult)
I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3
Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose
Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
YO I'M COOKING ON INVESTOPEDIA LET'S GO
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
sorry sorry sorry
excited about hitting 1000 posts as well
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
Sure...
*My Orange Tabby likes to purr just before assaulting people. I am concerned.*
Here's a link to my Discord thing: The Dorky Dragon Tavern
"Avoid roasted cabbage, do not eat earwax, and look on the bright side of life." -Angela
this is Gato's way. [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Hello, all! Foalin is my familiar, after a little conversation...
extended sig(click it): :3
*Purrs, then stabs you slowly, as a sign of love*
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
Thats sort of insulting
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
No its all good im just being depressing
I'm Fry, a doodler, writer, aspiring singer/songwriter, and sort-of youtuber (check me out!) goofin' around on the interwebs
Soli Deo Gloria(Sed servus eius crustulum vult)
I'm a disabled, neurodivergent, dumpster fire, and somewhat of a clown, but I do my best :3
Crafter of Constellations, vocaloid enjoyer, waluigi’s #1 fan, space alien, undead cutie pie, danganer of ronpas, and certified silly goose
Internet big sib to aspeninthetrees, TheGatoLover, (and hopefully more)
She definitely lost her patience.
Although that might not be why she lost patience with me.
Also: putting me in a book would degrade its quality. But all right.
Here's a link to my Discord thing: The Dorky Dragon Tavern
"Avoid roasted cabbage, do not eat earwax, and look on the bright side of life." -Angela
this is Gato's way. [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Hello, all! Foalin is my familiar, after a little conversation...
extended sig(click it): :3
Which, is sometimes the best medicine
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
........
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
WAIT OLD UI RESTORED!
Praise Jeff!!!!!
Ni!
Creator of the Realm of Dragons Tavern
My Extended Sig
It's okay to accept that you're not feeling great. Over the last few years, I've personally realized that when I try to "tough it out" and "man up", things just go downhill from there. So -- it's okay to take a day off, sleep in, work on feeling better. And look -- everyone has these days. You're not alone.
But -- knowing what happiness is and coming back to where you started is hard. I'm not entirely sure what to say here -- hope you feel better, hope you figure this out -- and know that things'll get better. You are yourself -- you know what you need.
Also (for everyone) -- I know (nearly) none of you IRL, yet you all are great people. Keep being that way :)
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
No! Completely understood (again, everyone's like this at times.)
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
um...
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
Yup. Hi, Isaac!
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
(also 7 (after this, 6) posts from 1000 yay! :)
EDIT -- after I posted this I just realized I was about...6'7 posts from 1000, maybe?
Bisected bisexual + general f*ckup
I see the airplanes--they're pouring from your chest
They fill the air
And burn and bury you just like the rest
Is minic a bhíonn na réaltaí is gile maolaithe ag a lonrú féin.
|------extended sig------|
Cats can do that
Hello! Call me Tana
My pronouns are She/Her
I have Autism. And, you would probably call me Trans Femme, Pansexual pancake, and Ace
I will always support you. To the best of my ability. Because that is my way of showing how much I care
Current Dice Code: [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Current List of Children: Golden, Salem, Wes, Aspen, Link, and Foalin.
That's literally what he does :)
Here's a link to my Discord thing: The Dorky Dragon Tavern
"Avoid roasted cabbage, do not eat earwax, and look on the bright side of life." -Angela
this is Gato's way. [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] + [roll]1d4[/roll] = [roll][roll:-6]+[roll:-5]+[roll:-4]+[roll:-3]+[roll:-2]+[roll:-1][/roll]
Hello, all! Foalin is my familiar, after a little conversation...
extended sig(click it): :3